Re: It's the lobotomy, stupid
by
fanjoe
01/06/2008, 1:02 PM #
As someone who has had ECT in the past, I feel the need to respond to your comments.
I suffered from depression my entire life (yes, as a child I can recall feeling the constant doom and gloom ) and it continued to control ever aspect of my life. I had tried group therapy, 1:1 therapy, hypnosis, eating certain foods, even acupuncture before I tried medication. The pills did work - or at least made my life more bareable. I had no idea what it felt like to be 'normal' - what everyone else seemed to be feeling. But everyone was certainly feeling better than I was, that I knew. Plus, I did often feel like I did not want to live.
I had a tragedy in my life - which took me to the brink of death (attempted suicide 3x' within 3 months). My mind was CONSTANTLY focused on death!! I was literally counting each breath, knowing it was one less to the end of my life. I finally met a psychiatrist who really seemed to take an interest in 'healing' me. Not just medicating me as the others had. After spending a significant amount of time with her, she explained ECT to me - extensively! I decided to go ahead - I knew I had absolutely nothing to lose. What could possibly be worse than spending every moment of every day wishing I could die? Actually dying?? Would be a dream come true to me!!
I had 17 treatments. It got rid of my life-long depression - and I could then deal with the depression caused by the tragedy that had taken place a few months earlier.
For me, it was a miracle. I never imagined that life was supposed to feel this good! Not in my wildest dreams... When I think about how my life used to be, it over-whelms me. No one should have to live like that.
The ECT took place 4 years ago, and I've never had to repeat the process as some people do. I would do ECT again if I needed to. I do continue to take some medication, but it is a small price.
Soccerfreak wrote;
Given the choice between shock therapy and death, I would choose to die.
I don't think I've been as offended about a comment before as I am about this one. People who wish to attempt to or do commit suicide never want to do die. They actually don't want to live in pain anymore. There is an incredible difference between the two. Someone who is contemplating suicide and who would then be presented with another option (ECT for example) would most likely take the other option over death.
Depression has a terrible stigma attached to it that people who don't suffer from it (or have lighter degrees of it) don't realize. People are embarrassed to reach out, so they suffer in silence. They don't get the help they need because they are worried about how others will see them. Have you ever been surprised when someone you know has committed (or attempted) suicide? You believe he seemed "fine", like nothing was wrong? I don't think people realize that depression can be terminal. Because it isn't a physical pain, it isn't perceived as a real pain. Because YOU don't have depression (or a debilitating mental illness) then it must not exist or can't be THAT bad. That people need to 'buck up' or pull themselves up by the boot straps.
Nobody realized how badly I wish I had been able to over come depression throughout my life. Depression held me back from doing so many things, it controlled my entire life. I thank God for the ECT I received.