"# 443 -- I tie my Hat" by Emily Dickinson
by
MaryAnn
01/27/2009, 11:15 AM #
In # 443, Dickinson emphasizes that her narrator is a woman. The duties of the beginning lines include putting on a shawl, replacing dead flowers with new ones, fiddling with a flower attached to her gown. And further on in the poem, as a result of the blow that caused existence to stop, the narrator states, “We cannot put Ourself away / As a completed Man / or Woman.”
What happened “some way back” that causes this woman to feel so bereft, to feel she can never be a completed woman? It could have been the death of her husband, possibly in the Civil War. It could have been her realization that, because of society’s expectations, she must keep her true self – including her beliefs and ambitions -- hidden.
At any rate, the narrator keeps busy with “Life’s little duties,” not to forget her blow, but “to simulate,” to maintain appearances before the intrusive eye of Science and Surgery. She says – with bravado or disdain – that she covers what she truly is “for their – sake – not ours,” but still, she admits, such action “is stinging work,” because she knows such actions are not her true self.
But these little duties are necessary because with the long-ago blow came a bomb, a bomb she still holds. This hidden bomb may be anger or heresy or pride, but at least the woman’s duties keep the bomb calm. So now the reader begins to understand that these conventional duties provide a “cover” for the woman.
The last stanza mentions, not little duties, but “life’s labor … [that is] done / With scrupulous exactness / To hold our Senses – on –.” Beneath the narrator’s conventional feminine appearance, she will continue her life’s work of experiencing this world (rather than focusing on the Heaven that may or may not be there) and writing about it, regardless of the world’s strictures, regardless of whatever blow she may have experienced in the past.