I have been married for 7 years now, have two kids.

Both my husband and I work and we have a nanny to supervise my daughter. She worked with us beginning of 2006.

She was wonderful with my kids and she was pleasing to be with.........granted she was young and quite attractive.

Then 2 months ago, my husband came up to me and dropped the bomb. He admitted that he had been having a sexual relationship with her for 2 years and now he is ready to break off the relationship with her.

I'm speechless.

I asked him when did they do it? he said he would come home at 2 p.m. everyday in between work and they would have sex in the house and sometimes in the park.

All these time I was working diligently to support the both of us, while he was having sex with my own nanny under my own roof. I immediately told him I want a divorce.

He said no and now he is becoming very controlling and very possessive. He snatched away our passports so we could not go out of the country. He beats me up if I dare to mention what happened.

I still love him but at the same time I am hurt by his betrayal.

How can he do this to the 4 of us?

I want an out but at the same time I'm not ready raising 2 kids by myself.

Despite his horrid behavior, he is a wonderful father to his two kids.

Please advise