Bethazany - I was saddened to read your posting... and I'm already depressed.... First off, I hope you hang in there. Life is certainly difficult at times. I also suffer from clinical depression and I know what it's like. You are also quite correct that few of the people who are posting here have experienced mental illness, or have had ECT. Not that they're not entitled to an opinion, but please, if you haven't been there, and have nothing constructive to say, don't tell me what to do. It's discouraging that few of the people who seem rabidly against ECT (or even want to make it illegal), have any realistic suggestions of alternatives. SO..... If ECT is so awful, (and many also complian about drugs), please, what is the superior alternative you suggest? It's discouraging.

Bethazany - I don't know your state, or your financial situation, but there are options for treatment for people of all incomes, it might take some legwork to find them. I would start at www.mentalhealth.samhsa.gov and go from there. I'm not saying you should do ECT, there might be better options, but clearly you need more help than you're getting.

Good Luck