Really. The OT features genocide after genocide, including a verse rhapsodizing about dashing babies' heads against walls. The NT rhapsodizes about streets awash in blood up to the shoulders of horses.

I was raised Christian but began to serioulsy doubt when I was in the tenth grade. In my twenties, I went through many phases of trying to "reclaim" a faith I never had. I found that actually sitting and reading the Bible (rather than over-thought twaddle like C.S. Lewis or Shelby Spong) was a sure-fire cure to those urges.