There is nothing in my reply that indicates that I am "grinding anything" into you. I just gave you my testimony. What you have just experienced is the Power of the Holy Spirit as He inhabits the testimony of a Child of God. You have been brought face to face with your lack of goodness, so the natural escape is to deny the afterlife and the accountability for one's actions when an afterlife is acknowledged.

It's ok. Millions, no billions have been exactly where you are now. Jesus Christ died for all of us, even when we weren't aware of our need for Him. You can never get to God; He will come to you, as He has done me..and billions of others on a worldwide basis.

Peace Sister.