Thanks for sharing this. It is helpful.

I am still mourning. Though I cannot imagine losing my child - just writing those words give me shivers - I do feel a loss of life, dreams, and love, which is as close to losing a loved one as I pray I feel. I find myself anguishing over things I could not control, knowing I am doing harm to myself in allowing myself to do so. At this point, I should be able to control my emotions relating to her; but, it is harder than I'd imagined. Almost everywhere I go in Atlanta reminds me of the life I had. Time might be my only healer. I have found peace within me, and there's always hope for contentment in the life I lead. I realize that much of the anguish I feel is self-inflicted.

In the meantime, I'd started recounting the things I'm thankful for on a daily basis, and I found there's plenty to be thankful for every day. Previoulsy unknown friends who show their love and support in unexpected ways. Goodness exhibited in the most ordinary yet touching interactions. Intimacy such as this. Thank you.